Yes & Amen

Advice for Myself (and all)

2012-01-27T12:30:00.000+08:00

Of all the many many good advice I've read from all the many many sources, this one seems to have reached down and sounded the wakeup gong inside me. ;)

Letter to an Incomplete and Insecure Teenager, from John Piper

Enjoy and be blessed! ;)

Another Girl Crush

2012-01-20T17:04:00.000+08:00

This time from The Sartorialist ;)

Working Girl Crush

2012-01-18T12:16:00.000+08:00

I'm so crushing on this photo. Love the specs (I want one!) and love the blazer ( I want one too!).

...somehow I've always looked forward to being a working girl. Now that I've got a little taste of it, I'm actually finding work quite fulfilling. You know the nice feeling when you've had a productive and exhausting day at work, and you sleep at night is oh so sweet? ;) I'm also loving that I have a little extra time after work for myself, whether it be catching up with friends or snuggling in bed with a book.

...some of it is not all I imagined it would be. Life happens. But I trust all things are in God's hands, and all are for our good! The good things are gifts of grace that we do not deserve, and even the seemingly bad things are also allowed to happen, so God can use them for our good. So in all things, I have to remind myself to always trust, always hope, always rejoice! :D

The Case for Dark Walls

2012-01-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

Need I say more? ;) Dad's repainting the whole house and I can't wait to experiment and go crazy! :D

Inspiration from Home! Seksan's 11@Mont Kiara Showcase

2012-01-06T12:58:00.000+08:00

Odd that throughout for my past three years of swimming in all things architecture, I have never actually got to know the archi scene in my own country Malaysia. Maybe because I had always been hidden in Segamat and have not been exposed to the the latest trends and developments.

Oh but this holidays, I'm so impressed! Just absolutely blown away! I really admire the Modern Tropical style that celebrates our culture in a clean, refined way. Also, I'm observing so many projects that appreciate good design and are willing to spend a little more to make things more beautiful and functional.

Most recently, a senior had shared this landscape company, Seksan, with me. And I'm so in love with their projects. Oh and since I've stopped making a scrap book of design ideas, I've decided to use my blog as a personal notebook of ideas instead.

First up, Seksan's 11@Mont Kiara Showhouse

I only wish their portfolio had bigger pictures. Anyway I like they celebrate structure as part of the language of design itself, notice how some usually structural elements like the wires and screens aren't functional here, but have been used instead just to add aesthetic lines. Also notice how all the joints and members are exposed. Also impressive is how all the sizes of the members are carefully proportioned to work together harmoniously, none too big, or too small in comparison, the result is an airy, open structure, yet a strong sense of place walking through the bridge.

Screen House by Randy Bens Architect

2011-12-30T10:49:00.000+08:00

At the risk of sounding extremely geeky, I find this picture of a staircase detail extremely restful.

A Belated Merry Christmas =)

2011-12-30T10:33:00.002+08:00

Draft of ecard designed.

A geeky idea that was better in head than in reality. =p

Saladstation by id design

2011-12-23T16:02:00.000+08:00

When was the last time I posted an archspiration? =) Anyway I've had the opportunity to observe interior design in the process, with the firm I'm interning at quite regarded for their retail id. Wow the crazy array of materials! So varied and yet subtlely so in every shade, texture, material, proportion, quality etc. While ID seems like every girl's pastime, it's more than just choosing furniture and paint color. In truth, id covers both built in and loose furniture. The Id eye has to be trained from experience to understand scale, proportion, balance, texture, lighting, space and so much more! I've come to admire IDs now, given that their work is on such a small scale and so relatable and often used by humans, all the joints, fixings, lightings and construction details make a BIG difference and they have to design every nail, screw, welding right down to the smallest detail.

So anyway here's a pic I came across I love. While I'm not a fan of pop colors, this one is unique in that they used it on the floor quite successfully, and the rest of the ID is given a basic, raw, industrial pallete to juxtapose with the floor. Nice. =)

Sydney, baby!

2011-12-19T14:44:00.002+08:00

Why do I want to go?

To be uncomfortable. Here comes adventure! ;)

It's a funny feeling...

2011-12-02T10:03:00.000+08:00

...that of leaving. But its about time. And I'm looking forward to another adventure ahead! =)

No More TV!

2011-11-17T19:43:00.000+08:00

I remember I never used to watch tv series in my youth. Not because I was against tv or something, but more because my hosue had no astro and back then I did not know how to download. So we watched whatever was on cable at nights after dinner. Mostly PCK. ;)

Coming here, I found myself with no family to spend time with and tend to have readings or assignments to do at nights. But when there is free time I find myself watching tv more, especially on the laptop. Not to say there's anything wrong to with watching tv, especially when you have prerogative over how you spend your free time. Rather I find myself just, I don't know, wasting time? If I put my free time into a hobby, say reading news or drawing, at the end of the day I would have learnt something interesting or have something accomplished, and there is a certain satisfaction to it. Rather with tv, its more like a temporary escape. I suppose there is a time and place for tv, sometimes when the mind is so brain dead and cant focus, tv does help to relieve a little by allowing the viewer to just stone and watch entertainment. But too much tv can take over your life.

While I used to enjoy my drama series, recently after exams I just found that I don't want to watch tv anymore. Maybe its because I'm so restless lately and have been jumping up and down finding things to do. Maybe its because my mind is quite mentally alert with the good rest that I can't seem to have the patience to watch tv, instead it wants to be engaged in something.Maybe with less stress there is less need for escape. But wow! What a refreshing change! I've been soooooo productive lately, I'm beginning to wonder why in the first place I would choose to watch tv instead! I'm getting so much done and instead of losing hours, I'm so ahead of schedule I have more free time for everything else!

So here's a reminder to self: less tv is really beneficial! :D

Architecture over

2011-11-09T21:34:00.001+08:00

Its the year end and my housemates and I are moving, hence its spring cleaning time! I've just cleared my boxes of university papers. All the notes and assignments and readings and what nots. Especially with architecture, the paper piles up pretty quick.

I was quite surprised I had so much to throw, actually. Because for a long time I've felt that I haven't learnt anything tangible throughout studying architecture. I've been telling my archi friends that I feel like I haven't learnt anything, to which they can relate. Yet, cleaning up this pile of papers just reminded me of the hard work I've put in throughout the 3 years. And it has been really hard consuming work indeed.

Sure we have many many assignments, but most of what we do is learning a skill. Looking back at the number of assignments we had, a minimum of 4 per course, average 3 courses a semester, that's at least 24 assignments a year! And each assignment, the standards get higher, it gets tougher, it employs a new skill...and every assignment we keep pushing ourselves to give more and do more. I'm not going to discount that the process is really arduous, and quite often I've found myself really challenged. Looking back I'm surprised that I've been able to keep giving 100% for all the assignments. To not give up, even when feeling inadequate in the face of such challenging creative assignments.

In the end even though there isn't a significant body of knowledge we had absorbed, I guess I would now say that I do feel like I've accomplished something. I'm happy to be able to look back and be proud of myself for giving 100%, even if the results are sometimes not what I had expected. What more can I ask for? =)

Dear Me

2011-11-05T16:21:00.001+08:00

I like what Hugh Jackman wrote in this compilation of letters people would time-send back to their 16 year olds selves.

"Your nature is to be hard on yourself...to push yourself...be careful of this...it can veer you off track faster than anything"

Silliness

2011-10-30T09:15:00.000+08:00

Thank God for sending me the company of friends. =)

I really am quite silly, when enrolling into courses, I end up choosing the most difficult electives and giving myself extra work, first trying to catch up to speed with background knowledge with the rest of the cohort, then trying to keep up with the rest of the cohort. I'm kicking myself now because I'm always giving myself extra work.

But then again, I've always wanted to learn international economic history. I knew that my perspectives before this were quite limited and skewed to 21st century events. I knew that lessons from the past would go a long way to helping me understand better whats going on now. And I knew I would be reading up on economic history myself sooner or later, one way or another. So when the opportunity came to learn it as part of an official (to get credit for learning that is) and structured university subject, I jumped at it. Looking back now over the semester, this subject has probably been the most relevant subject for me, even if it has been rather difficult as well. Well, its an area of interest, so while it was challenging, it was most enjoyable. Better yet, I'm quite surprised with how much I've learnt in just a semester, the benefits of studying a pre-determined syllabus, I guess. These days, I find myself engaged in current affairs, and actually having informed opinions about them. This course definitely contributed towards my long-term goals. So, well, no regrets then. =)

Overkill

2011-10-28T15:21:00.001+08:00

So much for time management. Strong egoistic me seldom gets discouraged, more like angry. But I shall now calm down, because after all im always a steady girl =)

Late Night Study/Assignment

2011-10-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

What is it about architecture, that makes you think, with 5 hours left to submission hour, yet it seems like there's still so much time. Well its true, because I can be zoning out and listening to noisy stay-awake music while lasso-ing in photoshop. I think my threshold for stress has increased a lot since.

Unfortunately this principle does not translate into study. Still, quiet rainy nights are quite enjoyable.

Final Render

2011-10-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

Last Lap

2011-10-19T09:19:00.001+08:00

Finally get to the part I like most, making the posters. Its not due until about 3 weeks more I just found out, this submission is to hand in the drawings so he can check our line weights and mistakes. But I need to study for exam! ARgh i dont have time for all these changes! Note to self: why do you kill yourself with taking architecture right brain subject and something else left brain subject! Why give yourself so much trouble, and taking the courses based on interest instead of level of difficulty, its just giving yourself more trouble =/ But then again, I wouldn't enjoy it if it weren't a challenge. and if I weren't learning something, I'd want my money back.

2 down, 2 more to go....

DEADline

2011-10-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

Yes, I'm going to keep posting my progress, cause I'm working round the clock now.

Its not funny anymore

2011-10-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

The amount of work required out of us is so daunting and tight, its just not funny anymore.

Still Doing Architecture.

2011-10-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

My huge as drawing. It was quite funny, due to the unrealistic size of my building and the unreasonable scale requirements of the section (1:100), my drawing ended up being one giant A1 size. I ended up standing the whole afternoon with this funny butt-out pose due to my lack of drafting table. come to think of it, A1 probably doesn't even fit any architectural drafting table either.

Anyway this project has me dealing a lot with hand drafting (because its faster due to time constraints). I'm working with rough baking paper, note books, tracing paper, graph paper and what nots. Suddenly I have an abundance of paper my eco-conscience is not really comfortable with. Back in high school, I used to tear off all the unused pages of my little exercise books. I ended up collecting a whole paper bag worth of paper I use for scribbling only.

When I think about it, architecture probably is the worst environmental subject ever, according to EthicalOcean's infographic. i think architects can atone for our study sins in the future, when we build north-facing spaces, install proper insulation, create proportional windows, design proper ventilation and use eco-materials. Meanwhile, my recycled-paper notebooks and LED light bulbs will have to relieve my guilty conscience for being so wasteful with paper. =p

Swallow swallow saliva swallow

2011-10-16T10:02:00.000+08:00

Huge as drawing.

Haha, reading yesterday's post, obviously my plan to take a break failed. =p I'm running so tight, I think this is the first time I'm really starting to panic.

I feel like vomiting on an empty stomach. =(

omgeeeeeeeeee

2011-10-15T23:08:00.001+08:00

Its my last project, I'm really pushing it now.

7 hours!

2011-10-15T19:41:00.002+08:00

Today

2011-10-15T07:43:00.001+08:00

I declare it non-architecture assignment holiday! This week we girls have been pushing ourselves really hard, it sometimes gets frustrating when the efforts do not produce the results you wanted. Its alright, a quick break and its back to full steam ahead!

Student Stress

2011-10-12T08:07:00.002+08:00

One extra intense session of studying, two cups of coffee. ;)

It's an uncommon fact that architecture students like myself don't have exams. All our assessments are through assignments as we have physical productive and graphical work to show our ideas. What's that I hear? An burst of outrage and protest? Yes, I have many friends who envy us architecture test-less architecture students.

Ah well, not that it's without it's own source of stress. Often the work load is heavy and tedious. And ask any creative studies student and you'd discover that we're more often always unsure of ourselves and whether we're doing the right thing. It's not uncommon to put in ten hours and get less marks than a peer who has put in only 2hours. The uncertainty of never knowing whether your ideas are good enough can be quite stressful.

I'm also in the unique position of being one of the few architecture students who take electives outside of the school. As a result I'm familiar with both the tests method and the assignments method. I can understand why others envy an assignment based mode. As it turns out test stress comes from having the burden of your entire subject placed on a single two hour exam. There is no room for mistakes and it can be quite high pressure. Sure you may prepare rigorously for it, but you may never know how truly prepared you are, especially when there are no past benchmarks to measure your progress against. Also, sometimes exam skills and knowledge learnt can be two very different things. I once had this exam which consisted of short answer questions. A full answer is awarded 5 points. An unsatisfactory answer is awarded 2 points, and a wrong answer is awarded 0 points. So we can actually try to answer every question, get awarded 2 points each, and still fail. That was quite an exam to remember. =)

But I digress. I do understand test stress. For all our group studying, cramming and private tutoring, there is always the high pressure environment of tests. Assignments, while course marks are awarded gradually over the semester and spread over a few assignments, is instead a run of perseverence and always pushing yourself to produce better and better work, because the standards keep increasing as the years go by and expectations also increase according to level. The constant self-improvement can be quite a challenge especially when you're not sure how to improve skill.

In the end, i think I prefer exam based assessments, simply because I'm a nerd and I know I can put in the hours and I can always get external help. It's almost a guarantee of a good mark. =)

If there was a scene that describes me

2011-10-02T18:14:00.000+08:00

its up to minute 1:30

Sydney, baby!

2011-10-02T09:16:00.000+08:00

city lights beckon

Credit Card Bug?

2011-09-24T08:30:00.002+08:00

Since I was young, myself (and probably all other chinese kids) have been warned of the dangerous credit card (yet somehow we're encourage to gamble? hehe). After hearing many a horror story, I told myself I should never get one. After all, why spend money you don't yet have?

Well it turns out that was a very naive way of looking at credit cards. Check out credit card surplus for more information. Sure they are tempting, all the more if you have a spending/shopping addiction you're trying to control. But for the rest of us who are trying to maximise our money, it turns out that used correctly, credit cards can actually be beneficial when you know how. In fact, its a lot like the stock market. For all the dangers you hear of people losing money, you just need to arm yourself with the knowledge and understand the market mechanics, then there a whole new avenue of opportunity awaiting the smart and savvy.

What changed my opinion of credit cards was this article, Optimise Your Credit Card in the book I Will Teach You To Be Rich . His advise made a lot of sense (cents!), and the perks such as accumulating points, discount offers and consumer advocacy can go a long way to stretching your dollar. It won't be long now until I start earning my own living. Credit cards is just another tool for me to better manage my finances.

That said, I would advise people on credit cards the same way I advise people on stocks. Do Your Homework! Know what you're getting into and whether you can accept the risk. Even then, be very cautious of all the frauds or companies seeking to make a quick buck out of consumer ignorance. It's just common sense (cents?), don't get into something you don't fully understand, especially where money is concerned. =)

The End of Reagan-Thatcher Conservatism?

2011-09-22T07:15:00.000+08:00

Highly unlikely, I doubt these protests will register a blip in history, but we'll see. Somehow I end up sympathizing for Bernanke's team. It's not easy trying to remain competitive in a global economy and appease the proletarians that get burnt in the inevitable structural changes. Which is why there is a saying in tutorial, politicians shouldn't make economic decisions.

A Short Retrospect

2011-09-20T23:09:00.001+08:00

Its perhaps the crossroads phase that comes at the end of every season. For the past few weeks I've really been reflecting on the journey that I've been on since I got here. If there was one thing I learnt about myself here, its that I'm not infallible.

I was one of the lucky few kids with the charmed life before I came. In my time here life took quite a turn. I found myself in new circumstances, unchartered territory, unforeseen situations. And it turns not we don't necessarily make less mistakes as we get older. We just experience new things in which we discover we're imperfect, naive, foolish and only human. We find ourselves making new mistakes and discovering weaknesses we never knew. In truth, character building really is for life.

I must say I'm quite surprised at myself. I have found at times I can be quite lazy, self-absorbed, resentful, envious, foolish...well the list goes on. And that scares me because I'm not that kind of person. Sometimes we respond well intuitively. Other times we make mistakes. But the thing I've learnt, slowly but surely, is we're all a work in progress.

I guess I'm learning not to be so harsh on myself, and that has gone a long way to understanding other people better too. Sure there will be phases in life we make mistakes, we could have handled things better; but whats most important is our response. Whether we resign to our flaws, or take conscious and constructive action to change.

I'd like to see the past 3-4 years as just another season. There is no good and bad, all are precious lessons learnt and all reveal God's character and faithfulness in new and exciting ways that make it all worth it. =)

Excerpt From As A Man Thinks by James Allen

2011-09-17T19:00:00.001+08:00

Let a man radically alter his thoughts, and he will be astonished at the rapid transformation it will effect in the material conditions of his life.

Men imagine that thought can be kept secret, but it cannot; it rapidly crystallizes into habit, and habit solidifies into circumstance. Bestial thoughts crystallize into habits of drunkenness and sensuality, which solidify into circumstances of destitution and disease: impure thoughts of every kind crystallize into enervating and confusing habits, which solidify into distracting and adverse circumstances: thoughts of fear, doubt, and indecision crystallize into weak, unmanly, and irresolute habits, which solidify into circumstances of failure, indigence, and slavish dependence: lazy thoughts crystallize into habits of uncleanliness and dishonesty, which solidify into circumstances of foulness and beggary: hateful and condemnatory thoughts crystallize into habits of accusation and violence, which solidify into circumstances of injury and persecution: selfish thoughts of all kinds crystallize into habits of self-seeking, which solidify into circumstances more or less distressing.

On the other hand, beautiful thoughts of all kinds crystallize into habits of grace and kindliness, which solidify into genial and sunny circumstances: pure thoughts crystallize into habits of temperance and self-control, which solidify into circumstances of repose and peace: thoughts of courage, self-reliance, and decision crystallize into manly habits, which solidify into circumstances of success, plenty, and freedom: energetic thoughts crystallize into habits of cleanliness and industry, which solidify into circumstances of pleasantness: gentle and forgiving thoughts crystallize into habits of gentleness, which solidify into protective and preservative circumstances: loving and unselfish thoughts crystallize into habits of self-forgetfulness for others, which solidify into circumstances of sure and abiding prosperity and true riches.

A particular train of thought persisted in, be it good or bad, cannot fail to produce its results on the character and circumstances. A man cannot directly choose his circumstances, but he can choose his thoughts, and so indirectly, yet surely, shape his circumstances.

Scary numbers

2011-09-14T16:47:00.001+08:00

At the risk of sounding overtly geeky, this website which has accumulative numbers of key monetary indicators of the US economy is incredibly scary yet cool at the same time. =)

I Miss This

2011-09-13T12:37:00.000+08:00

Hands down my all time favourite chocolate. I don't know why I'm suddenly craving. =)

Day of Eternity by Thomas A. Kempis.

2011-09-11T10:03:00.001+08:00

"Oh, when shall be the end of these evils? When shall I be mindful, O Lord, of You alone? When to the full shall I rejoice in You? When shall I without all hindrance in true liberty, without all heaviness of mind and body? When shall I have solid peace, peace secure and undisturbed, peace within and without, peace every way assured? O Jesus, when shall I stand to behold You? When shall I contemplate the glory of Your kingdom? When will You be unto me all in all? Oh when shall I be with You in Your kingdom, which You have prepared for Your beloved ones from all eternity?"

I've been learning ...

2011-09-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

...all I know from youtube! argh i want my money back! =p That said, architecture has been such a crazy ride for me, better enjoy the crazy creative freedom while it lasts!

2011-09-04T17:52:00.002+08:00

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”Mark Twain

Two things I must learn before I'm 25

2011-09-04T08:54:00.000+08:00

1. Learn the freestyle. Until I swim it as instinctively as I do the breastroke.

2. Cycle handless. Because its challenging fun. =)

Interesting Photos

2011-09-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

While studying of hyperinflation in the 1920s in Germany, the text mentioned a few famous photos I just had to look up. Yes, burning money because it was worth less than firewood.

Confessions of a Workaholic

2011-08-31T20:25:00.002+08:00

Some people would say I'm a workaholic. I say damn right I am! I love watching motivational videos and reading about inspiring people that pour all their passion and energy into whatever they do. Which is probably why sometimes I border on obsessive when I get absorbed into my projects and studies. Regardless of how the cohort had performed, I'd work until I'm satisfied with my own performance. I always say do your best because I absolutely dislike the regret that comes when you know you could have done better.

Enjoy the vid! :D

Throwing Away Stuff

2011-08-27T09:27:00.001+08:00

Today I threw away a lot of junk I didnt realise I was hoarding. Old models, free magazines, old editions of architecture australia, old postcards, paper or articles I kept but never got around to reading, even the odd photograph.

Those who know me already know that I have very little stuff. I credit my minimalism to my mom, who has always kept our home clutter free. Not to mention the guilt I feel when I accumulate stuff I hardly use. So, I was quite surprised myself that I still had much to throw away.

It was very liberating. Somehow hoarding junk just tends to weigh you down, cluttering not just your room but also your mind. I feel ready to move forward, looking towards what is to come, not what has passed. I think I'm the most non-sentimental person I know. Sure the memories were great, the experience unforgettable; but with appreciation of the past, also the hope looking forward. Theres a certain fearlessness, excitement, sense of adventure and optimism bubbling inside now. I do believe God has a plan. So what's next? =)

Dear Janene...

2011-08-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

...are you up for adventure? Your dreams might be closer than you realise. =)

two milestones this weekend

2011-08-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

one: crash someone's birthday party, meet new people and have a rocking good time.

two: got a response published in a newspaper.

=)

Time To Go Vegetarian

2011-08-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

Well actually, pescetarian, cause I still like my fish. =)

But I guess its been a long time coming. One of the items on my 2011 list was to try go vegetarian for a month. Somehow I've been putting it off. I do know the humongous benefits of eating whole raw foods, and the many reasons not to eat protein. In fact, there are absolutely no benefits to be derived from protein at all, instead almost all health problems can be attributed to protein.

I sounds outrageous, I know. I myself used to be a proponent of the high-protein, low-carb train of thought at one time. But for the past few years, I've been exposed to much medical literature as my family gets more and more conscious of health and nutrition. I've already read most of the books and they imprinted in my head a hidden consciousness that I am not eating healthily and need to make a change of lifestyle.

I guess it all remained head knowledge. Or you may call it foolishness when you know whats best for you but choose to do otherwise. Maybe its because meat can taste so darn good. But recently I've had a jolt to my conscience. Observing first hand the preciousness of health and how we so easily take it for granted, I'm quite wholly convicted now not to continue in my past foolishness.

I dont think itd be too difficult. I've slowly been disconnecting from meat anyway. But I've also developed bad habits along the way, a sweet tooth, snacking etc etc. Well no more! Time to take responsibility and take control of my own health!

I've set dates, am gonna try it for a time frame and am actually pretty excited to be going vegetarian. I'm especially looking forward to the energy and focus that comes with health. To be honest, I won't be motivated to change out of fear of disease, but rather am motivated because of the strong body and sharp mind that comes with health through right nutrition. I've been feeling like I haven't been operating at full potential and I know my lethargy and stress have been a significant factor. I'm quite excited to eat and live right, jump out of the stables at full speed and see what I can achieve! :D

Meanwhile, this public declaration pretty much shows how serious and committed I am!
Interested? If you're thinking of health and weight control, try reading Dr. Joel Fuhrman's Eat To Live; if you're also concerned about the food industry and how we're not getting access to proper nutrition, read Michael Pollan's expose; but the book that really convicted me was Campbell's The China Study which gave, to me, pretty much sound reason to eschew protein and start 'eat food, not too much, mostly plants'

Good luck to me! :D

A Moments Pause

2011-07-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

I had started off this year with a clearer idea of where my interests lie. I consider myself one of the few lucky ones who have the opportunity to pursue a career that I'm truly passionate about. To be honest, I'm really looking forward to fully throwing myself into it and see where it could lead me.Apologies for the vagueness, we'll keep this secret a little closer to chest for now. =)

I had also discovered a natural interest in all things finance. One of my aims this year was to get more financial savvy and since it has been an interest, I found myself more often than not reading through the business section of the newspapers. Instead of just blindly spending, saving and watching my education account keep decreasing. I'd like to think I have a clearer idea now of my own finances, the opportunities, and the options for my near future.

This year I found myself getting crazy ambitious. For when it matters to me, I like to do things well. I find my ambitions aren't just about reaching a goal, its about the process of constantly growing and finding new challenges. I'd like to think there aren't any boundaries on how far we could go if we really wanted to. I'd like to think I'm a person with focus, motivation and energy. =)

Sometime this year also I've begun to consider other possible pursuits I might enjoy. After all, lets make life a little more fun, I might discover something new. ;) I haven't acted upon it yet, but I have been researching and considering what are my possible options and I'm looking forward to these as well. =)

Having said all this, I do find myself getting discouraged from time to time. Perhaps its because I see a full stop already to my studies. Perhaps its because I haven't been taking care of my health too. Perhaps its also because I have a wrong perspective, get caught up in the busyness, or entertain negative thoughts. Perhaps I'm just burned out from this year's turn of events and personal challenges.

Looking back, I thank God for His grace. His grace to teach me so much, to carry me and motivate me. Passion and ambition come from Him. So too the strength and energy. And especially the enjoyment from engaging fulfilling work.

Yet on reflection, the year has been pockmarked with periods in which I lose focus and felt overwhelmed. Its been good, but it could be better. I know I haven't reached my full potential. These two weeks stolen holiday are a good opportunity to reflect and recollect and recalibrate. When I get back, it will be different. I'm gonna savor the last of my undergraduate year and end the year with a bang! :D

A string of happy surprises

2011-07-11T21:20:00.002+08:00

- managed to snag the elective I wanted. Initially there was a timetable clash, but two weeks before semester starts, my core course changes and the timetable opened up for me to enrol for the course I wanted. Initially the classes were also all full, and then a spot opened up. A small but definitely significant happy surprise. =)

- won a lucky draw! i had never won a lucky draw before so i'll definitely savor the feeling. won't publicise what i won though ;)

- earned extra money on the side unexpectedly. not one, not two but three times. ;)

- got a satisfactory grade for the subject that i wanted to do well in most. a most challenging subject, but most interesting and most most rewarding. =)

Sunday's Five Things

2011-07-10T20:44:00.000+08:00

I keep telling myself not to post food pictures, buts thats the stuff I take the most pictures of so...oh wells. Anyway looking through my pictures, I'm beginning to observe just how food really brings people together.

Whether its a potluck event everyone contributes a bit to.

Or someone unexpectedly sharing their food with you.

Or catching a random simple meal spotaneously.

Or going out for perhaps a nicer treat.

Or working together for a major baking/cooking project.

Whether its the eating or the cooking, its a great excuse to catch up and spend time together. I think even though I'm neither a good cook or baker, I'll definitely want to continue opening my house and enjoying everyone's lovely company! :D

Junk mail. Love it or hate it.

2011-07-09T17:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I love it. Well, actually I like to receive those catalogs in the mailbox. Usually its about wine, or hardware, or a pharmacy, or fashion or supermarkets or what nots. Those junk mails are my guilty pleasure. At the end of a long day, I will have a pile of newspaper reading to catch up but somehow my eyes will just glaze over and I cant digest whatever I'm reading. So I'd usually browse through the day's pile of junk while having my dinner, happily flipping away and comparing prices on the oddest stuff like germanium potted plants and tyre hub caps and shiraz. Heheh.

But I have to admit though, sometimes the influx of catalogs can be overwhelming. And more often than not, I find myself wasting a lot of time reading catalogs. How nice it would be if I had control over what catalogs that came to my house. I usually find the supermarket catalogs most useful as they give me a rough idea of whats on sale and allow me to compare prices from my dining table. Ah but I find sometimes the clothing catalogs dangerously tempting as they advertise a good bargain that I don't necessarily need. So if I had a bit of control over some ways to specifically reduce junk mail, that would be awesome. And not only that, sometimes catalogs can be a waste of paper. More often than not, I find a bunch of catalogs strewn all over my neighbours streets or flying in the wind somewhere, or rotting outside in the rain and sun. Perhaps if we do not wish to read certain catalogs, wouldnt it be better to be able to opt out of receiving them. For all the pros, and cons, it only makes sense to supply to only enough to meet demand. If only Australia had something like Catalog Choice, we'd be able to control exactly what comes in our mails, and save the environment a bit. =)

Inconstancy of Heart & Final Intentions by Thomas A. Kempis

2011-07-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

SON, trust not to thy feeling; whatever it may be now it will be quickly changed into another. As long as thou livest thou art subject to change, even against thy will; so as to be sometimes joyful, at other times sad; now at peace, again troubled; at one time devout, at another indevout; sometimes fervent, at other times sluggish; one day heavy, another elated.

But he that is wise and well instructed in spirit stands above all these changes, not minding what he feels in himself, nor on what side the wind of instability bloweth: but that the whole bent of his soul may be made conducive towards the due and wished-for end.

For thus one and the same and unshaken can he stand, directing, through all this variety of events, the single eye of his intention unflinchingly towards Me.

WHEN shall Thy grace, O God, inspire me with some degree of that firmness and faithful adherence to Thee which Thy glory imparts to the blessed? Suffer not my heart to be overcome by that inconstancy which is so natural to it, nor my life to be a perpetual succession of good desires and evil practices, of promises and infidelities. Not to love Thee at all times is to love Thee not as God; Thy reign over our hearts, to be worthy of Thee, should be constant and invariable.

Grant, then, O God, that my soul may be all Thine, at all times, and forever; and that, by my perpetual fidelity, I may merit eternal happiness. Amen.

Environment

2011-07-07T20:40:00.002+08:00

One thing I'm absolutely determined to consciously recalibrate is my ambitions. Adelaide is lovely and the people a happy satisfied bunch. No one who chooses to stay here ever complains that its too small, instead they learn to embrace the slower life, and find enjoyment in simple pleasures. I love how refreshingly contented people view life. Except its not for ambitious little me, at least not for the long term. But wherever I go, I'm blessed to be able to take away a lesson on contentment and thankfulness.

One thing I also want to take away is the open friendliness and the priority on relationships I observe here. I still love that total strangers in line at a cafe, at the traffic light or just a random bumping, everyone's friendly as if they're already friends, something you definitely dont see in Malaysia or Singapore. There is also this equality and respect to everyone, no matter what the life journey, whether hairdresser, student, waitress or cleaner. And the way people here treasure relationships. I definitely want to continue to be the person making small talk to strangers, even if it may seem odd back home. And definitely want to learn to take an interest in people who may or may not be a presence in my future.

I definitely learned a lot from my trip to Melbourne. I had always idolised Melbourne as THE place to go to head towards in the future. It was Adelaide, but better in every way. But after finally visiting the shrine, the greener grass suddenly lost its lustre. It had its pros and cons, just like every other place, and in the end it doesnt matter where you go, but what your attitude is wherever you are. And visiting Melbourne helped me not only appreciate Adelaide, but open my mind to now consider anywhere with a certain fearlessness. I'm certainly looking forward to the future. =)

Boy descending escalator.

Lessons along the way

2011-07-07T20:05:00.002+08:00

I know, suddenly a whole lot of posts. Well, I always have thoughts stewing over in my head and often find myself writing drafts then coming back to them with fresh perspective a little while later.

But this time, I just want to pen them down as soon as they come under radar.

I'm learning to laugh at myself. Not taking my self to seriously and finding my own shortcomings silly and humourously embarassing. I would like to see everything a spicy sense of humour ;)

I'm learning that life is not a series of destinations to settle down. As if a job, marriage, a house, a family are the successive steps to aim towards. Life can be an adventure! You can break conventions and be anything and do anything and go anywhere you want to go! And when people tell to wait patiently for that someone, internally I'm grinning away because I've never considered myself waiting. More like I'm already living my life and hey if it happens to happen along the way then it happens. =)

I'm learning how precious my dreams are and how they really drive me. I'm learning that I just can't be stagnant. It's not that I'm uncontented, its just that I enjoy having a focus and direction and the constant growing. I don't think that there's a certain target I'm aiming towards because I enjoy achieving a target, then challenging myself to higher targets because its the process, not the goal in itself, that is so damn fulfilling. :)

Another random pic, the honey drenched australian landscape from the train window.

Personal Development

2011-07-07T19:49:00.002+08:00

I've never viewed myself as particularly talented. I've viewed myself as...slightly above average in talent. Where I excel is with a ridiculous, sickening work ethic. While the other guy's sleeping, I'm working. While the other guy's eating, I'm working. While the other guy's making love, I mean, I'm making love, too, but I'm working really hard at it!

Will Smith

I've always been quite a believer in personal development. I had always found it fulfilling to challenge yourself and discover that you can actually achieve more than you thought you could.

I still do. I still find personal development stimulating and exciting, whether it be in career, learning a new skill, consciously changing your attitude, or simply learning to count blessings in life. I had lost a bit of the fire for a while, but now that I've jumped right back into it, on hindsight, I'm beginning to understand a bit about how all that matters is our motivation behind that personal ambition.

Looking back, my constant self-development had also fueled my pride. Now I'm ever so cautious, ever questioning, what really drives this trait I observe in myself. I can only conclude perhaps some people are made this way, whether by nature or nurture, the way God makes apples and oranges. I'm learning to understand that there is no ideal 'fruit' or 'trait' everyone should have, but just that different people find fulfilment in different ways.

As long as at the end, the ambition does not become the idol, instead an arrow to God. =)

Just a random pic, because this was a quiet moment in the midst of Melbourne's busy laneways.

The sun sets too early

2011-07-05T20:06:00.002+08:00

Winter, I like your cold beauty and dark cosyness. But I really prefer the focus, energy and productivity that comes with longer daylight hours. Ohhh I'm so restless. =)

Sunday's Five Things

2011-07-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

On time this time =)

Because bok choy goes bad really quick.

Because the shapes are so unusual.

Because it has been 2 weeks since the last time I did groceries.

Because sometimes the house is just too dark and dreary.

Because its due tomorrow.

Sighs. This week has been so eventful, from the end of exam season, overlapping winter school classes, lots of catching up with friends, news from family, trying out some new things here and there. Somehow this weekend had to be my worst weekend ever, a culmination of...I don't know what. Not that there's anything different about this week, even this assignment is not very heavy weightage or too difficult.
I think I'm just a bit burned out. One of those periods of discouragement, which I've come to realise as short term emotional fluctuations not to be heeded too much. I probably just need some time to clear my head, get focused and I'll be alright again. =)
Odd though at times like these, I find myself lonely. Not that I don't have amazing friends around me. I just don't want to burden other people with stuff that can't be solved. Oh sighs..burned out =/

2011-07-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like the fool for holding onto memories

So little time =)

2011-06-30T17:23:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I get so terribly excited...so much I want to do and so little time. =)

Such an eventful week, and its still only thursday =)

Sunday's Five Things

2011-06-29T16:30:00.000+08:00

Yes I know, uber late this time. I havent been going out snapping much cause my nose was caught in my books most of the time, exam season obviously. I'd like to think stress is all in the head, that I'm the type who can breeze through exams. Well, much hours, frustrating and hard work definitely, but I find it enjoyable and challenging, and after all, if it weren't challenging I'd want my money back. ;)

So five things from the my archives, oh melbounre folder, so much to choose from! This time I'll show you why the laneways are such a Melbourne identity :D

Oh the energy! The hustle and vibe and coolness...but could I live in Melbourne, hiding away from the rest of the world? Hmmmm...

We're Here To Be Sent

2011-06-21T17:07:00.001+08:00

If there ever was a graphic image to capture my excitement. Suddenly, where I go, what will I be doing, career, future, life...all seem less important. The whole idea of finding your calling seems the wrong question to ask. I know whatever I do and wherever I go, I want to be overflowing with love and drawing people to Christ! :D

Sunday's Five Things

2011-06-21T01:28:00.000+08:00

This is my exam season, hence I have been Youtubing much at uni. For those of you in Malaysia and Singapore, it would seem weird to Youtube at uni. You see our internet has a bandwidth quota in which we pay per usage. Have to have Youtube free at university is gold.

Anyways 5 videos then!

First is Boyce Avenue's Just Can't Get Enough. I've only fairly recently found out about Boyce Avenue but was never really a fan until this song. I really love the song, and he adds an edgy breathy sexy male machoness to it. ;)

Another more recent discovery is just how cute that gay actor from Glee really is. And how well he sings indie easy songs. And how adorable Charlene is with her short bob and dresses. And the super cute happy-tune song. :)

Another local artiste gone down the indie-acoustic-folkish-icantdescribereally-zee avi style. And oh so honey smooth for winter nights :)

Everyone knows about this already. but I'm just so in love with it! :D

Finally, I ran out of vidoes to share, so just to round it off, the most recent laugh some friends have shared at fb ;)

Stress?

2011-06-21T00:37:00.001+08:00

What is that? Its all in the mind, baby. ;)

the two people I admire most

2011-06-18T21:46:00.000+08:00

are my mum and dad.

Mum for her inner strength, as evidenced by her hope and faith, both gifts of grace from God.

Dad for his quiet and humble fortitude, both also gifts of grace from God.

Been bouncing between extremes

2011-06-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

Oh my, I'm really bouncing between extremes. From full-on all nighters to full day movie marathons. From all vege meals to chocolate overdose. From spending the whole day out 9 to 11, to not going out at all. From swimming almost everyday to not at all.

I think i need a more regular routine! Alrightey then! Back to swimming 3 times a week, studying until 9pm in uni max, raw vege lunches, proper cooked dinners and night-time dramas! :D

Oh meanwhile, I've been checking out job sites...when the job market is like this, its pretty clear where I need to head for in the future...

2011-06-14T10:28:00.000+08:00

Aiyayai...I think I will take one day off. Tomorrow is a new day.

Rest in God Above All Things by Thomas A Kempis

2011-06-12T15:02:00.001+08:00

Grant me, most dear and loving Jesus, to rest in You above created things;(Rom.8:19) above health and beauty, above all glory and honour; above all power and dignity, above all knowledge and skill ; above all fame and praise, above all sweetness and consolation; above all hope and promise, above all merit and desire ; above all gifts and favours that You can bestow and shower upon us; above all joy and jubilation that the mind can conceive and know ; above Angels and Archangels and all the hosts of Heaven; above all things visible and invisible ; and above everything that is not Yourself, 0 my God.

0 Lord my God, You transcend all things ; You alone are most high, most mighty, most sufficient and complete, most sweet and comforting. You alone are most full of beauty and glory, in Whom all good things in their perfection exist, both now and ever have been, and ever will be. All, therefore, is too small and unsatisfying that You can give me beside Yourself, or that You can reveal and promise me of Yourself unless I can see and fully possess You. For my heart cannot rest nor be wholly content until it rests in You, rising above all Your gifts and creatures.

O Lord Jesus Christ, spouse of the soul, lover of purity, and Lord of creation, who will give me wings of perfect liberty, that I may fly to You, (Ps.55:63)and be at rest? When shall I be set free, and taste Your sweetness, 0 Lord my God? When shall I become recollected in You, that for love of You I may no longer be conscious of myself, but of You alone in a manner not known to all men, and above all perception and measure? But now I mourn and bear my unhappy lot with grief, for many evils happen in this vale of sorrows, which often disturb, sadden and darken my path. They often hinder and distract, entice, and entangle me, so that I cannot approach You freely, nor yet enjoy the sweet embrace which You prepare for the souls of the blessed.

O Jesus, Brightness of eternal glory and comfort of the pilgrim soul, hear my cry, and regard my utter desolation. Words fail me in Your presence; let my silence speak for me. How long will my Lord delay His coming? Come to me, Lord, poor and little as I am, and bring me joy. Stretch out Your hand, and deliver me from all my misery and pain. Come, Lord, come, for without You no day or hour is happy; without You my table is without its guest, for You alone are my joy. Sadness is my lot, and I am like a man imprisoned and loaded with chains, until You refresh me with the light of Your presence, and show me Your face as my friend. Let others seek whom they will besides You, but nothing ever can or will give me joy but Yourself alone, my God, my Hope, and my eternal Salvation. I will not keep silent, nor cease from urgent prayer till Your grace returns and my heart leaps at the sound of Your voice.

Because God is good

2011-06-12T14:46:00.000+08:00

Blessed be Your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say:

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say:
Lord, blessed be Your name

Sunday's Five Things

2011-06-11T21:41:00.001+08:00

Every week I have a hard time choosing among my photos which to upload in Five Things! I have so much to snap! I try not to include people here, so hopefully my album on facebook will help complement this one.

This is my glenelg routine. I'll always buy fresh fruit n a handful of nuts and sit at my favourite spot to just enjoy the sights sounds and smells.

Cute kids playing in the sand.

Theres also this nice big quiet church open to public to just go in and be quiet for a while. Its sort of like my escape from the city.

Mushy messy mash. Actually its hot chocolate powder and raspberries, mashed together tastes divine!

Yap i bought a bagel jsut for you! Its denser probably because its pre-cooked in water first. Interesting texture =)

Sunday's (very late) Five (bicycle) Things!

2011-06-09T08:37:00.000+08:00

Bikes are taking over our uni! giving me bike envy! :D Well, not really. I just really love bikes and love that there are so many kinds! And all look so rad! One day I just took out my camera and started snapping away the bikes I pass on my usual routine.

The hipster's/arty's fixie. Less is More (Mies van der Rohe <---google him!). Its got the look cool without trying too hard vibe. Looks great paired with skinny jeans, black framed glasses and buckled army boots. Oh but good luck cycling those hills without the option of gears.

The road bike - super slim form marries multi-gear function. Its light and sleek and for the more serious cyclists. Looks great paired with a sharp office suit - as if the person has more important things to get to. Its got the young urban professional conscious of eco-carbon green vibe. Heheh. Still my preference because its the best combi of form and function. Sleek and fast. =)

The classic bike. We're seeing a lot more of this kind these days. For the ladies, especially, with the dropped cross bar and the wicker baskets. Looks great paired with oxford shoes, a high waisted skirt and cardigans. Ah but the thick tyres, a bit too large frame and a bit too conscientious vibe puts me off.

The..erm..whats this? Usually seen under you typical Aussie bum with floppy, curly hair (awwww!). They'd usually be dormant all over North Terrace and but suddenly start stunting right just as you walk past them. Hehe. ;)

This is the probably the coolest bike for the day.

Change of Winds (cont.)

2011-06-06T10:14:00.003+08:00

I think something new and exciting has been stirring inside. And its not because of the new haircut either ;)

All this while, since I came here, God is faithful and has kept me with Him. I think it was a time of finding my convictions. God was and still is my first love, but translating that into life isn't so straightforward. Especially in the area of the heart. What role does ambition play? How to consider money and luxury? When does confidence become pride and vanity? Stuff like that. I knew there was a line that separates right and wrong, but I guess I just didnt know where that line was. I wasn't consciously going against my conscience, I was just finding a way to reconcile practical life issues. Which on hindsight its a good test of convictions.

Ah I think I had a good life, always cautious of all these. But looking back, I was not consciously sinning, yet somehow...not living either. I felt like I was just getting by. I can handle all things well, am ambitious and going on like this, would be successful as defined by our world's standards.

Then some wind blew..well actually God in His abundant grace kindled in me something more than just the desire for a good life. Not that I'm suddenly more pious, or that I resolved to change, or that I had been consciously seeking direction. Its more like a quiet whisper, little stirrings as I'm reading here and there.

"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world"C.S.Lewis.

And suddenly I don't just want to get by. It's like while I can float along well, theres suddenly a wind in my sails. A sense of purpose that permeates everything. I wanna tell the world about Jesus. I want everyone's lives in whom God has placed my to see Jesus' love.

What has changed? Before the wind, I know that I can only be satisfied by God. So in everything I do I take care not to let it become an idol. Which is most tiring because you never know when your desire becomes too much. Looking back, I found myself becoming shallow, materialistic and self-centred. Not that I was purposely chasing all these against my conscience, but I believe God stirs up people's conscience in His time and that He had given me over to my natural fleshly nature to let me discover my convictions.

Now it seems like a different season. Not that I'm trying any harder, or that my attitude or determination or anything changed. Yet its a different season because suddenly there's a desire for something more that just living a good life. I'm beginning to see how truly, I am most happy when everything is for His glory. And while before the wind, I was most concerned with His glory in my own life and motivations, now the focus is to share the joy! Its not just living, its a mission.

"Whatever was to my gain, I count them a loss for the sake of Christ. What's more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish that I may gain Christ." Phillipians 3:7-8

And I see it most in my thoughts. Oh the things I was concerned with before, while valid stuff, they seem so empty now in comparison. And in the depths of my heart, a peace and sense of rightness.

"Nothing can wholly satisfy the life of Christ within his followers except the adoption of Christ's purpose toward the world he came to redeem. Fame, pleasure and riches are but husks and ahses in contrast with the boundless and abiding joy of working with god for the fultillment of His eternal plans. The men who are putting everything into Christ's undertaking are getting out of life its sweetest and most priceless rewards."
J Campbell White

Oh a new season, its exciting!

Change of Winds

2011-06-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

I feel like the winds are changing. Something exciting. Something right. :)

Finding My Calling...?

2011-06-01T14:36:00.001+08:00

"I find it interesting that one of the most common questions asked today among Christians is “What is God’s will for my life?” or “How do I find God’s will for my life?” Many Christians almost assumed the attitude that they would obey God if he would just show them what he wanted them to do. In the middle of a Christian culture asking, “How do I find God’s will for my life?” I bring good news. His will is not lost. With 1.4 million Bedouins in Algeria who have never even heard the gospel, it makes little sense for us to sit over here asking, “What do you want me to do, God?” The answer is clear. The will of God is for you and me to give our lives urgently and recklessly to making the gospel and the glory of God known among all peoples, particularly those who have never even heard of Jesus."— David Platt, Radical (Colorado Springs: Multnomah, 2010), pp. 159-160

But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. ⁸ What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.

Phillipians 3:7-8

Excerpt taken from a friend's blog here.

Studio Over

2011-05-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

Wow. I am just stunned myself. The past two weeks were easily the most full-on period of my undergraduate studies so far. I've never been so fired up ever. And it all came down to today.

I've never had an overnighter in uni, which is both a good thing and a bad thing. Good because it meant I manage time well. Bad because it might also mean I don't push myself enough. Last 10 days alone I immediately clocked in three overnighters, and averaged staying in uni from 10am to 2am every day. Even now just sitting at my desk and thinking about it...wow.

What was different this time was an all-consuming obsession with my work. And the best part was I was loving it. I loved having this incredible sense of purpose, and after that an incredible sense of achievement. I loved being so devoted to my project and really working my heart out for something. I loved the stress, which to me wasn't stress at all because I enjoyed it.

I think I'm really surprised at what I myself am capable of. I never thought I could survive on so little sleep, easily 5-6hours average, or stretch myself out so thin, and yet still survive in spirit and focus. Physically, the hungry jacks, sleep deprivation and coffee overdose probably took its toll already. ;} Its definitely a blessing and a testimony to His grace and sustenance. =)

Of course, this is only applicable to architecture, where the work is just tedious and time-consuming. The motion-sensored lights in the cad labs actually kept going off even though there were 5 of us night owls there. It turns out were all motionlessly staring at the computer screens with just our fingers moving. Tee hee.

The best part is the friends. Its was almost like a party in the CAD lab always with food circulating and occasionally us as well when we get tired and pat each other's work. We shared lots of food, laughter, tips, advice and youtube videos with each other. And the friends who stayed back were really very inspiring. somehow being with people who have that fire in their work, it inspires you and excites you at the same time.

Today, just looking back, I think I'm going to miss the whole experience. =)

Sunday's Five Things

2011-05-31T19:06:00.000+08:00

It isn't really Sunday's Five Things if its always late, is it? :D

After a really windy night, the next morning we woke up to a blanket of leaves covering the streets. Even though the weather this time of the year is unusually cold, the trees are just gorgeous with their warm colours and falling leaves.

Spot the similarities! My friends and i from the same class begin to pick up each other's habits, namely keeping our rubber bands around our water bottles! Such an archi thing because we always need them. =)

Ah while I was working on the computer station next to the window, this poor bird just kept flying smack into the window. Made me really think about what I'm studying and how it impacts the environment.

This was Saturday night? I don't remember because basically every night was such a party! :)

Welcome my newest family member, Knut! I've been wanting to get a soft toy to hug for so long and was so happy to find a cheap one! And its a polar bear I've always wanted too! :D

It will shock you how much it never happened

2011-05-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

Do it. This never happened. It will shock you how much it never happened.

Sunday's (more than) Five Things

2011-05-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

Totally sleek, futuristic street sweeper! Fuuny thing, the guy driving it was just getting out as I passed by, "Do you like my machine?" he asked. Somehow thats a very macho thing to say. =)

Drop dead gorgeous leaves. Yes the colours are that red, and I never seem to tire of the maple leaf shape.

But what really made that gorgeous tree stand out was it's juxtaposition with the neighbouring tree, an evergreen, spiky palmish sort of form. Love love them together! :)

Oh so cute dogs in oh so cute shop! Love that the shop had cute european-country-girl clothes, classic bicycles with baskets and two super cute doggies! Ah no need to go all the way to Europe! :)

This building has probably the most gorgeous facade in the most gorgeous setting ever. These are the old police barrack, now part of the musuem nearby. The external stairs are rare and dignified, which makes the symmetry of the courtyard all the more fitting.

This was what it looked like before chilling, and the layers meshed together into an inedible mess of mush. All that hard work down the drain. At least I got a nice picture out of everything. :)

Come On Get Higher

2011-05-22T19:01:00.001+08:00

When I'm sharing songs, you can be pretty sure I'm at my computer working on assignments. And today I just found out youtube isnt counted in uni quota! hooray! but also..lots of youtube surfing..and some songs just strike you.

This one gets me emo to the point of tears..but the melody is too good to withhold. Enjoy =)

This song, Lady Antebellum's Need You Now and The Script's Breakeven...all off limit songs =/

Restless

2011-05-18T22:16:00.001+08:00

Do you ever get that feeling that you know you can do better? True it may be a perfectionist trait, but I'm not being anal here, because I know what are my limits and what I'm capable of and I know I haven't been operating at that efficiency frontier.

I believe I can do better. And while I might come up with a million and one reasons as to why I've been struggling a little, truth is, all those are just excuses. I'm not talking about those external factors over which we have no control. We all have challenges to overcome. I'm talking more about that inner drive, that focus, that attitude and motivation and the ambition and drive to push yourself. After all, we can't wait for the problem to be solved, or for the people to change, or for the system to improve before we're fully committed. We should always have that drive to give our best in whatever situation or environment.

I believe I can do better. While this semester I have been slacking, I find that I thrive most when I'm productive. I like being busy and doing something well. Ya, I like doing things well, be it really understanding a financial concept, producing an amazing rendering, taking care of my nutrition, swimming those extra laps, cooking a good meal...Even though I do waste time and procrastinate and neglect taking care of stuff, I get terribly annoyed with myself for doing all these silly things when I know better. I think we need just a bit more pressure to push our limits a bit further.

I believe I can do better. Since that refreshing holiday at Melbourne, I've been looking a little at the larger picture. Well, while not my long term future, but more my immediate future. Where do I see myself in 5 years? Where do I want to be by then? What am I doing now to achieve that goal? And what have I always wanted to accomplish? What are you waiting for, why not start now?

I believe I can do better. And not just that, but I've been thinking how boring it is to just be studying. I've been pretty much your typical uni student with studies being most important. True that, but why should it just be that? Why not mix it up a little. Do something unusual. Take a risk. Pursue an interest on the side. Get out of my comfort zone. Take a risk. After all, I'm gonna be studying at least another one to two more years. Is next year just gonna be the same? How boring. I can do better. Take a risk.

Late-night Work Songs

2011-05-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yes, its that time of the semester again, the long late nights, the crazy work load, the coffee. Nothing can replace a good upbeat song to keep the energy high! I'm loving all of ne-yo, trey songs, usher and atm, this song stuck in muh head! ;)

Sunday's Five Things

2011-05-14T23:26:00.001+08:00

This 'five things' thing is good because I'm getting lazy to blog. Oh dear. And I'm too lazy to edit the pictures below too. =/

Random odd fact: I keep my stuff in a clear food container, those cheap ubiquitous takeaway ones. I find it easier to transfer my stuff from one bag to another, keeps my load of things to a minimum, helps me access things better, and helps me locate things faster.I used to keep my stuff in (even more space-saving) zip lock bags, but those kept getting punctured by the pens I throw in them.

Autumn leaves.

The construction over, under, and throughout our archi school literally made holes in our building.

Bread and butter. Simple ingredients to a happy me.

Tried my hand at tau sar pau because I'm still in my asian food phase. The result was not bad, considering it was my first time with the dough. Not good either, because the dough was too hard. But in the end it just wasn't worth the effort ;}

Oh I think I found the solution to my baking rut...breads! They would be quite a technical challenge, ah but I love the many varieties of fancy bread here. I love the fresh smells of baking. I love breadtop with their buns and savoury fillings. So having been inspired by this blog and this blog , I look forward to trying my hand at kneading and proofing and rolling and what nots. :)

Post Grad Studies

2011-05-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

This year is my last year in my undergraduate degree, Bachelor of Design Studies. Yes, I know what you are thinking. We are actually studying architecture, but somehow our title got downgraded to 'design studies', sadly.

I had came into this course pretty excited about architecture. It was a relatively new decision, as architecture as a profession was as foreign to me as cinemas, back in Segamat. In fact, there still aren't any practising architects in Segamat, with the design of buildings being copied and pasted all over town, and cost-efficient economics being prioritised over design.

Which is probably why sometimes I find my money-counting chinese roots at odds with the design component of my course. Sometimes I do wonder whether I really wanna pursue architecture. After all, to be an architect, we need at least a Master's level of study, so I still have two more years to go.

I'm thinking of so many other stuff I could pursue, and where. Of course to have maximum opportunities, I'd probably have to take the gmat exam, and would probably need much gmat preparation for that. But I'm optimistic about the future. :)

This is Melb uni's business school. Now wouldn't you like to study in an environment like this? :)

Sunday's Five Things

2011-05-08T22:12:00.001+08:00

I realised last sunday I missed out five things! Well, that was perhaps because I had just got back from Melb and boy was I tired! I hope to post up a bit about Melb soon...but we'll see... ;) This week I have also been so caught up in enjoying the moments that I keep forgetting to take pictures! Like right now I'm peeved I forgot to take pictures of my most amazing looking and tasting steamed fish ever! But lets see what else I have... ;)

Oh a friend and I have started a new project to cook together! You know how sometimes we get lazy to cook after a long day and end up eating rubbish? Well, we thought if we tried cooking together, we'd be more healthy and have lots of fun trying out stuff at the same time. So the challenge is we'd cook alternate meals, but they must be from this one recipe book.
Haha. From the pic above, obviously my very first attempt EPIC FAIL! Hahaha..while the kitchen was a disaster, thankfully my friend was finding humor in the whole situation and we had a good laugh about it.

And ended up compensating ourselves with the best Jap food in the whole state! Somehow I've always had good sushi with good company, I'm starting to really love salmon+avocado+mozarella atm. ;)

Oh this was a while ago..guess what it is... Escargot! ;)

And I've been hankering to make green tea chiffon cake! It was perfect! Until it came out of the oven, apparently I need to rest it in the oven to let it stabilise. Between the oven temperature and the cold autumn room temperature, my cake sank. Still, it was really light and tasted super good...I will definitely try again ;)

All foodie posts eh? Obviously the new season of Masterchef has started! :D Anyway this picture shows jsut how far I cycled the other day! ;)

Baking Rut

2011-05-03T19:29:00.001+08:00

I'm stuck in a baking rut. I realised I havent exactly tried anything new since I first started out in high school.

Not that I've done everything, but I've pretty much done everything I like to eat. The most recent being the pandan chiffon cake. I haven't gone the way of creams such as panna cotta or creme brulee, neither have I done the fancy stuff like mousse cakes and macarons, nor the really technical stuff like pastries...buts its simply because I just don't like to eat them...

I never thought of myself a food snob, but lately nothing excites me anymore. I think I just miss grandma's amazing yong tau foo and mum's famous black chicken rice.

Back From Dreamland

2011-04-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

How Green Are You?

2011-04-24T20:16:00.001+08:00

Where do you stand on environmental issues? Indifferent? Informed but apathetic? Just couldn't be bothered?

Well, for myself, I completely agree we need to take care of our planet. Recently, a lecture had reminded me about the definition of sustainability - not jeopardising the future generation's home. We could all definitely do with more personal awareness of how we ourselves live. Yet somehow, despite all the marketing and propaganda and adverts, the average person just isn't very green conscious.

I do believe the key to changing our bad habits, in fact any successful change, is all about aligning incentives. Carbon tax, anyone? :) I like how Jared in presenting his green marketing ideas here puts it, "You really need to move both the incentives of the government level and the demand of the public to a place where its easier and cheaper to be green."

Honestly, I find that true for myself. While I do try to be more environmentally friendly (don't leave water running, put on more clothes instead of turning on the heater, recycle...), I realise I'm doing so not because I have a strong conviction of being green, but more because, well, it makes more economic sense. Like I cycle not because I'm against fuel consumption, but because its cheaper than taking the bus. I save electricity because it saves money. And at home we grow our own vege because its cheaper and healthier.

Perhaps that why this green social entrepreneur blog excites me. It presents creative business models that promote sustainability. Rewarding to the wallet and easy on the conscience. :)

Seriously considering going vegan...:)

Sunday's Five Things

2011-04-23T18:36:00.000+08:00

This week's five things is a little hard to write. I've had a trying week...but in the midst of my weakness and brokenness, I'm carried by a faithful God. :)

Gorgeous. Blue. Bike

Count how many types of fruit/vege can you find.

Spot the coffee.

Good food that I will one day learn to cook.

More fooling around

2011-04-19T19:06:00.001+08:00

Deceiving Holidays

2011-04-19T18:52:00.003+08:00

Autumn is beautiful. And so are you.

Yes, they are deceiving because during uni term, we only have about 13-15 contact hours a week at most. Spread out over 7days, thats around 2 extra hours a day. Two hours only? Given the time I've been spending going out and catching up with friends, I've definitely 'finished' my holiday time allotments. =_='

Still, while the work is still there (maybe even more), at least there's less pressure (or am i ignorantly kidding myself). Today was my first real breather. Wake up 730 early, go gym, fresh bath, woohoo! top of the world! come home, prepare breakfast, do some light reading, crash back into bed at 10am. =_=' In the end, heck care! I need a break! Bring out the popcorn and dramas! :D

Funny story, I had brought my Old Town White Coffee (fav!) stash to keep in my uni locker and to share with friends. Turns out many of them had the same stash too. Old Town lovers unite! :D

Simply loving the colours here! :D

Sunday's Five Things

2011-04-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

I was thinking lately that I'm so blessed with all I have. You know how sometimes we flip a magazine and we wish if only we had those shoes, those parties, that job, that lifestyle...well, I was thinking lately how what I currently have is so much already, all that makes it different from a magazine is a pretty picture! Which probably explains my sudden interest in photography lately, or well, I just wanna take pretty pictures. :D

Anyway, I'm grateful for what I have and want to capture these moments. So starting from now on, I shall post up five things weekly that delighted me! :D

Biscotti! Because I drink coffee like nobody's business, I thought biscotti would be a nice compliment.

I have been trying to find a place to study for those days when I don't have classes. Being a snobbish architect-in-the-making, the library ceilings are too oppressive, the lighting at the school cafe is too flourescent, the seats at the illumin8 building don't match the table height, and what nots. Cafes would be a nice place except I don't want to buy coffee just to study there. F-f-f-found! A gorgeous library set in a restored old building, just far enough to escape the city crowds and just near enough for my bike to travel! ;)

Baking, or well, more like watching my housemate bake...But still, pretty sweets!

Picnic in the sun! love! :D

Hanging out with good friends at our secret place - botanic bar! Swanky atmosphere with the cheap and good food. Sold!

Holiday Mood

2011-04-11T16:29:00.001+08:00

It Is Finished

2011-04-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I wrote all this in one weekend. Not including all prep work beginning since the release of assignment at the beginning of the week.
Still if my assignments were not challenging, I would want my money back! ;) This one was to prepare an Investment Policy Statement. Can't wait to do one for myself now. Thank God for grace to complete one of the the hardest challenges yet! :D

All that is good

2011-04-02T11:09:00.001+08:00

"Oh Lord, my God. You are all my good things!"
Thomas A Kempis

Silly me! Trying so hard to balance. By balance I mean chasing my career/studies/good times/friends/money, but always wary not to let them become my first priority. Always questioning my motives and getting frus because we can never really know our true motives. So while chasing the things I want, there was a certain cautiousness; not afraid of chasing them, but of chasing them too much.

Silly me! Because all my good things come from God. Which includes the things I have, and the ability to find joy and contentment in them. It also includes the opportunities and abilities I'm given in life. All are good because He is good. They are not 'wrong' things to enjoy as long as we're enjoying them with gratitude and acknowledgement of the Giver. :D

p.s. leave you with another melting moment pic!

Dear Assignment...

2011-03-30T11:57:00.001+08:00

Please hurry up and finish yourself so I can get my life back.

Analyse the financial performance...who knew such a simple phrase can turn into a four page essay.

Still, its not stressful,unlike architecture. I think the ultimate stress comes not from a tight schedule or a lot of work or a difficult subject. Stress for me comes only when I'm not sure how to do well. Like if it were a concept that I find challenging I know all I have to do is to swallow my text books and keep swallowing until I master it. Unlike architecture, the ultimate stress because I don't know what to improve on. No certainty whether work is good or bad.

Sienz.

Buble + Ne-Yo for late night study

2011-03-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

I really need to study. I got ambitious this semester and am finding the work quite challenging. But I enjoy a challenge and like what I'm studying, so no complaining! :D Just sad that sometimes I have to make choices between books and friends. Of course I prefer my friends anytime! But tough decision have to be made...meanwhile I'll keep all my dears in heart! :D

Oh Singapore!

Meanwhile it was quite interesting to read about 'the total value of compensation earned by the 10 best paid Macquarie Bank executives in the 12 months to 31 March 2006 was a staggering $83.5million' in my textbooks, while the newspaper's article was a personal reminder how fragile life is.

My Own Cibo!

2011-03-20T12:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I'm overwhelmed with just how blessed I am to be here. I can't believe how far life in Adelaide is from my days in Segamat.

I used to love those once-in-a-blue-moon trips outstation to the perhaps Malacca. And when I was younger, I secretly hoped that they would take me to the mall and we would have coffee at some swanky cafe, and share a pretty cake or two. Perhaps because Segamat doesn't have any fancy cafes (and still doesn't!), these little experiences are the treats of the finer things in life.

So having the new Cibo (Adelaide's best coffee branch!) open just behind my house is quite a big deal for me!

Although my student budget can hardly afford such fancy treats, I am thankful already that I am given opportunity to study for a better future! And all this can be traced back to my two most amazing, selfless, sacrificing parents. Makes me want to put in the most in my education now for the future to come! :)

Meanwhile, my and my slim student wallet shall enjoy homemade Cibo instead. :)

Fooling around ;)

2011-03-17T14:31:00.006+08:00

Good Study Songs

2011-03-11T14:22:00.000+08:00

I'm really behind time, but this happens when a considerably old song starts playing on radio and I realise, oh gosh I miss this song!

Future Thoughts

2011-03-10T19:19:00.001+08:00

I had always thought I'd be lonely back in Adelaide. Really thank God that He's keeping me close, cause I've been feeling less lonely than I have for the past few years. Well not that I pay much attention to feelings, because they come and go, but more like I'm just feeling so secure and satisfied with God. Which I thank God for, because by grace I'm saved, and also by grace is the feeling of being safe from Him.

Sure with my emptier timetable this semester there are many times when takde kawan lar. Ah but I'm learning not to depend so much on company. So here's telling myself to just make full productive use of the time (opportunity) available. And then other times when there's company I can fully enjoy company without having to worry about studies/projects/what nots.

I've been excited about the future lately. I think I've been telling all my friends, I can't wait to work! I have so many aspirations, not just in career, but also in life. Sure we can't plan the future, and ultimately everything should be a pursuit of God, but at the same time I find I'm just naturally ambitious. Now that I'm in third year and have a clearer idea of where I'm headed for, I'm pretty excited about getting there.

Still, here's a reminder to myself.

Give me neither poverty nor riches

but give me only my daily bread

Otherwise I may have too much and disown you

and say 'Who is the Lord?'

Or I may become poor and steal

and so dishonor the name of my God.

Proverbs 30:8-9

Home Sweet Friends

2011-03-05T19:05:00.005+08:00

I must be the luckiest girl in the world. I have all the blessings of home, and coming here, the blessings come mostly in the form of friends. :)

Anyway as i was leaving I tried to capture snippets of simple stuff that I often take for granted back home. Like simple baking projects. I finally learnt to make chiffon cake. And pandan one too. It was so. so. good.

Lots of free time for reading, here's some of the books I devoured.

Going pasar with my dad/grandmother! And actually knowing the chicken uncle, the vege aunty, the sundry shop uncle and son... :)

Swimming as the sun rises in the nice open air swimming pool nearby.

Oh, found a favourite meal back home!

Driving.

Friends who make you feel so so loved. First time I got sent off by both friends and family and it was the best I could have asked for! :D

Upon reaching, I had the best arrival welcome I could have imagined too. A darling housemate who woke up to pick me up, and another dear housemate who settled my meals on the first day. Felt so loved! Then it was soooo good to catch up with dear friends! And already been to the new cibo next door twice! Hehe. ;)

My birthday was also the nicest I could have asked for. There's nothing I like better than a simple meal and conversation with my closest friends. And the biggest surprise came from a dear friend in Singapore! Love you to bits! :D

2011-02-25T10:16:00.000+08:00

"Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going."
Jim Ryun

Once a Year

2011-02-23T12:03:00.001+08:00

Haha I'm totally ripping off Zhen's post here, but whatever lah... :D

Once a year, I will head down to Singapore to meet my super special girl friends from ACJC. It's been almost 5 years now of sisterhood. Having gone through so much growing and learning and laughing together in CF, and from then on, they have been an anchor and constant reminder to me of God's faithfulness, when all around us are changing, His goodness remains the same. :)

I'm truly inspired and encouraged everytime I meet those two precious people. Carol has been so blessed in that through heartaches, she has grown much stronger and wiser. She is always always unashamedly speaking of God's goodness and encouraging us with the Word. Sometimes in times of discouragement, it really helps to have some reaffirm to you what you already know, but somehow lose sight of. She's also the most patient listener ever, letting you vent your emotions before gently directing you to examine yourself instead of accusing and condemning. Plus, she's also extremely fun and silly! Lucky Jin Cong caught her early! I'm so happy for you dear! If you every read this... :)

Lizhen too I greatly admire! Life brings us many hardships and it takes courage and strength to grow from them instead of allowing self-pity and bitterness. I admire most not those who have it all, but those who have struggled and come out better. Having my own trials, I really admire her strength too in getting over heartaches and hurtful experiences. And through all that, to still have laughter and joy in her. Also, with all her success and beauty, she's still this down-to-earth, approachable sweetheart. Zhen! You confirm will get snatched up soon also! :)

Thank God for the love of friends. :D

Summer 2010/2011

2011-02-20T15:16:00.002+08:00

"Oh Lord, My God! You are all my good things."
Thomas A. Kempis